"Rendang Recipe", Al Hafiz Sanusi
Mak insist she wants to masak, this year
just like last year. But
she can no longer remember the recipe
to her beef rendang, her signature dish
for Aidilfitri. Food I feasted upon
growing up and tasted
each year without fail.
Everything is
different now, her hands a little more
tender, the taste slightly peculiar, the aroma
Inviting still
but her sprinkled seasoning of love
remains the same, her hands
still in tuned to the bashing of
the belachan, the wok still familiar
with her ways as she simmers down
the coconut milk, rendering down the fats
of the sacrificed meat. Mak no longer summons
the gastronomical gods of
Chef Wan and Asmah Laili, gone
Is the blangah, replaced
with a bowl of pride and hope,
hoping her son would visit her frequently during the holidays
hoping the misty memories of his favourite
dish will keep him coming home
every Syawal.
I return home
every year, hoping
to remember Mak’s rendang recipe
through the transference of tongues
before my Mak no longer
remembers me.